那一年我十一歲，只知道彈平和火焰球，過了四年，知道ＭＣ　ＨＯＴＤＯＧ歌詞裡有，但不知道是什麼，再過了三年從出租店的推車裡買了９９元ＶＣＤ，看完滿腦子只有荒唐和羨幕，不知道臥軌和露三點都被剪掉了，又過了幾年忘記已經看了幾次，每次感觸都不一樣，那時候自以為好像懂了，在貧民百萬富翁之後我才知道懂得根本只是皮毛，要懂得還多著，現在再看一次我都不敢說我懂了，越老越沒反駁的勇氣，看的太多想的太多，反而開始遲疑，懷疑當初所鄙視的，現在的自己是否就是那樣，從離經叛道到現在的敘事述說，他大我２９歲
Choose life. Choose a job.
Choose a career.
Choose a family.
Choose a fucking big television,
Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin
openers.
Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance.
Choose fixed- interest mortgage repayments.
Choose a starter home.
Choose your friends.
Choose leisure wear and matching luggage.
Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics.
Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning.
Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit-crushing game shows,
stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth.
Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable
home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats you
have spawned to replace yourself.
Choose your future. Choose life...
But why would I want to do a thing like that?

什麼是所謂的社會規範？讀一樣的書，做一樣的事，走一樣的路，畫一樣的圖，吃一樣的米，躺一樣的棺材，無冕王當初所秉持的有教無類，到現在的無教有類，我想是始料未及的吧，我的下一班火車在哪，無人車站裡空空盪盪，是誤點了還是我早到了，不能用猜的就用賭的吧，猜錯頂多看錯班表記錯車次上錯火車，賭錯就是三節禮金沒有三節肉塊上桌，沒有火車哪來的百萬富翁，這是Danny Boyle將近十餘年的伏筆嗎，十月開始，沒有悲壯的圍城，只有獨自抗戰的力量，四散各地的大家加油，跑道清空，用力奔跑吧

So why did I do it? I could offer a million answers, all false.
The truth is that I'm a bad person, but that's going to change,
I'm going to change. This is the last of this sort of thing.
I'm cleaning up and I'm moving on, going straight and choosing life.
I'm looking forward to it already. I'm going to be just like you: the job,
 the family, the fucking big television, the washing machine, the car,
the compact disc and electrical tin opener, good health, low cholesterol,
dental insurance, mortgage,
starter home, leisurewear, luggage, three-piece suite, DIY, game shows,
junk food, children, walks in the park, nine to five, good at golf,
washing the car, choice of sweaters, family Christmas, indexed pension,
tax exemption, clearing the gutters, getting by, looking ahead,
to the day you die.

頓悟了這些和那些之後，就不再是屈服，而是改變，勇敢的反其道而行，瘋瘋狂狂的那種，給我機會吧，耶，雖然我很喜歡他，但即將出第二張專輯的不是我，我頭髮剪掉不厚了好嗎，還有克拉斯克也不是！！

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